The relationship I might have with my parents one day... I think it’ll only exist, healthily, once I move out. I can’t imagine ever becoming the peaceful, grounded, light-filled version of myself while I’m still here. Still stuck. Still absorbing the chaos. It’s not that I think my parents are evil. That’s not what this is. They’re just deeply broken people who were thrown into parenthood without the emotional tools or support systems they so clearly needed. They were not regulated. They didn’t have the language for softness. They didn’t know how to meet a child’s needs because no one had ever met theirs. And I know, in some buried, far-off part of my heart, that if they’d had the space, the rest, the right community, the right healing, maybe they would’ve parented differently. Maybe they wouldn’t have hurt me the way they did. Because when I think about the version of myself who was mentally unwell, who was drowning and barely holding on, I remember snapping at people I lo...